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If you’re curious about tarot, or simply wandering through this house looking for meaning, you’re in the right room.

Unless otherwise noted or directly quoted, everything here comes from my own experience and from knowledge mostly gathered informally over time: observing other readers, exploring different decks and guidebooks, listening to teachings from many spiritual and esoteric sources, and learning through lived experience.
It’s a compound of insights filtered through my own interpretation, my metaphysical beliefs, my nervous system, and my background.
Please take everything with a very large grain of salt. The entire ocean, if needed.
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A brief origin story
There are plenty of theories regarding tarot, but no one knows the exact origins or how tarot came to be tarot.
One of the oldest records is from the 15th century (around the transition from the Middle Ages to the Renaissance). An Italian artist, Bonifacio Bembo, was commissioned to paint a non‑numbered deck for the Visconti family. These tarocchi cards were part of a trick‑taking game played for entertainment by wealthy families. The deck had, similarly to today, four sequences of 14 suit cards and 22 trionfi, scenic allegories depicting moral, social, and religious concepts.
There are many hypotheses suggesting these images contained hidden esoteric meanings. However, there is no evidence that Bembo or the Visconti family had any connection to occult traditions.
Be that as it may, whether Bembo or any predecessor he was inspired by, for centuries tarot remained simply a game. Only in the 18th century do we see the earliest signs of it being used for divination. Antoine Court, known as Court de Gébelin, famously claimed in his work that tarot was actually part of “The Book of Thoth” (ancient Egyptian texts attributed to the god Thoth) and a way to pass on knowledge to their students, and you probably guessed by now, it didn’t have much evidence to support it either.
Around the same time, Jean‑Baptiste Alliette, a French occultist known as Etteilla, published the first deck explicitly designed for fortune‑telling: the Etteilla Tarot. It was the first time tarot cards were widely introduced to the public as an occult tool, and he is the first known professional reader who made a living out of it. His practice introduced the idea of astrological correspondences, elements, reversed meanings, and even the numbers on the cards.
It had a distinct divinatory method compared to modern tarot, and a unique style with different card order, names, and imagery. It appealed to its niche, but may explain why it didn’t gain much popularity, contrary to the Tarot de Marseille.
The Tarot de Marseille is a pattern that originated in Italy but rapidly spread and was later mass‑produced in Marseille in the south of France between the 16th and 18th centuries. Because the deck had a familiar style and was used for everyday play, it circulated widely among ordinary people, making it the standard deck across much of Europe. This meant it was a more accessible and more “traditional” alternative to inspire occultists like Lévi, Wirth, Crowley, Rider and Waite, whose systems were later built on it.
And I should point out, it seems confusing, because nowadays we associate the word “tarot” with a specific occult tool. Back then, the word “tarot” was simply the French adaptation of the Italian tarocchi, the cards that were used for play. It happened that not only was the deck popular in France, but the occultists bringing up tarot as a divinatory practice were mostly French, so the terminology spread.
Speaking of misconceptions, another common misunderstanding is the association between tarot and Romani communities. The “Gypsies” did practice cartomancy, but there is no historical evidence that they used tarot cards. The association probably happened because of an “occult romanticism” that reinforced the mystical‑exotic imagery people projected onto those communities.
And the Kabbalah is another example. Some claim that the cards contain hidden Kabbalistic symbolism (from the Kabbalah, an esoteric school of Jewish mysticism), but there is no historical evidence for that either.
The first formal link between tarot and the Kabbalah actually appears in the 19th century, when Alphonse Louis Constant (Eliphas Lévi) intentionally connected the two, presenting tarot as a symbolic system aligned with Kabbalistic concepts. His interpretation expanded tarot from a divinatory tool into something that could also be used for gaining knowledge and enlightenment. This opened space for tarot’s use in personal growth through understanding life and ourselves, even though, once again, there is nothing about tarot in the extensive Kabbalah literature.
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With that in mind:
I don’t believe any practice should ever make you feel bad, doubtful, guilty, or ashamed.
It should serve your highest good.
It should support you, add to your life, and help you become a better person living a better life.
Nothing here is written to cause harm.
Take what resonates, leave what doesn’t, and let the rest find whoever it’s meant for.
Use your discernment — always.